As another year comes to a close and I find once again that instead of this time being one about celebrating some Christian festival or the fervour of basking in consumerism excess I reflect on the year. In past years some were terribly blue and although this year has not been all that stellar I am feeling more positive.
It could be seeing some of the mountains of paperwork finally come to a close which is helping me go forward.
It could be that I have realized that there are some things in my life that I am not happy and I am not willing to accept anymore no matter what the cost.
It is amazing where you can find knowledge and self awareness…who would have thought it would come from some silly website? But indeed I have found much from Pinterest.
I have also realized that everyone has a right to their actions, even if it disappoints you. And they don’t need to qualify their actions to others. And it is up to others not to try to diagnose them to think they know what is going on because they couldn’t possibly know.
It is not a competition. You don’t have to knock yourself out trying to be the best…as that is just setting yourself up for one big stress out and disappointment.
I don’t have to feel powerless, I can change some things. And this year I am going to work on lowering my expectations. Just because others don’t always do things that I would like them to do shouldn’t make me go for a nose dive.
And I know that this will be filled with back sliding and bad days but I think one day at a time will do it!
